These past few months I’ve had to be more like an adult. And it’s scary since I feel like I’m not learning at all. Missing out on my senior and having to do classes on zoom hasn’t been a good experience for me when it comes to academics.
I go to all my classes, but it doesn’t even feel like class. Since teachers have to do an assignment a day, I feel like all the assignment I’ve been doing has just been busy work and I’m not learning from it.
It’s already the middle of September and it feels like I haven’t learned anything since we left school back in March. And to top it off the motivation I had before to graduate isn’t there anymore.
Distance learning is stressful and annoying just because even though I’m staying up working on homework and I go to my zooms I just feel like I’m not learning. We have assignments every day that are just wasting my time and stressing me out.
And to top it off, I have so many different assignments all due at different times. Before homework would be due the next day at the beginning of class or the end of the week. Now, homework for my 5th period could be due at 3 pm and my homework for 1st period could be due at 11:59.
Around this time I would be telling myself that it’s all going to be okay that I will be graduating soon. But graduation is just not the same for me anymore and it doesn’t motivate me like it used to.
I don’t even think we will even come back to school this year at all. Which means no prom, no grant night, and possibly no graduation. Like a traditional graduation, not the little walk they did for the class of 2020.
Thinking about the feeling I would have felt as I walked across that stage makes me sad now. Being able to have all of your friends and family be there to support you wasn’t an option for the class of 2020 and it doesn’t look like it will be an option for the class of 2021 either.
All of this it’s just stressful. This quarantine has made me have a lot of emotions and fears about the future . And I feel unprepared to go to college and just overwhelmed all together. We’ve only been in school for a month and I truly don’t know how I’m going to make it until June.